My refuge. My Rock.

This has been one of the best Christmas seasons I've had in my life. I know I did nothing to deserve it. The past twelve days have been full of little surprises. It began on the 1st day of Christmas. I received two Christmas cards from my boyfriend in the mail. One said do not open until 12/15. My sister gave the cards to me because she had picked up the mail earlier that day...and she said "Oh wow, he's doing the 12 days of Christmas!" I hadn't even figured it out until she said it. I couldn't believe it. Each card from that day until the 7th day had been full of words of encouragement and some that made me laugh :). On the 8th day of Christmas I got to see him at the airport in Philadelphia where I had the chance to spend the next few days visiting him and his family. They had invited me over a month ago to join them in their annual Christmas dinner, where they all get together to celebrate (the whole side of his mom's family). That was lots of fun. I go...

There's something comforting about light. When we were young, most of us at some point or the other were afraid of the dark and some of us still are. Ever wonder why? I think it's because we feel a bit lost. If we can't see well, we don't know in which direction we're heading or if we're afraid of "monsters" (as many of us were when we were kids) we don't know if they'll suddenly show up and surprise us with their very scary faces! I believe our God created us this way. He created us to be comforted in the light.  It can't be a coincidence that human kind has this in common. When it comes to sin, it's no different. All of us were born children of God. However we all reach that point in our lives, when we start growing up and our eyes, ears, and minds are exposed to temptation to sin. Temptation is all around us. It can be quite overwhelming at times. Before I came back to God, I lived a life of darkness. For four years, I did things in ...

The past couple of weeks have been a bit of an emotional whirlwind for me. I recently entered into a dating relationship, I had to write my final papers and study for my final exam, I found out I have mild scoliosis, I was enduring a spinal pinched nerve and the pain, I've been preparing one of my classes of students for a tough competition, and I find myself having to be there more and more for my sons in their school work and in helping to keep them on track. In other words I have been emotionally and physically overwhelmed.  Just this morning, I had a bit of an emotional breakdown. I cried and cried and prayed. The feeling over me just felt close to unbearable at the moment, but I knew that this was Satan trying to put me down, overloading my mind with negative thoughts and the feeling that I couldn't handle all these emotions. You see, I have a certain stubbornness about me. It's a part of that pride I struggle with in my sinful nature. I feel that if something does not...

The last few days have been full of joy and and one big surprise. On Sunday, October 27th, 2013,  I entered a new chapter in my life. On this day, I agreed to enter into a relationship with a man who I met ten months ago. This is not just any man, he is a man who loves God above all else. I feel all sorts of things: excitement, joy, happiness, but most of all I feel very humbled to have been entrusted by God with one of his sons. For the last year and a half, I have been growing in my faith and love for Jesus in a way I have never in my life before. The only reason for this is because of God's wonderful grace. I have made so many bad choices in my life between my divorce and my restoration to God. I felt like the prodigal daughter when God called me back and welcomed my with open arms. I knew from this moment on, I would want my whole life, my whole heart to be dedicated to God. I started falling in love with Jesus, admiring all his incomparable qualities and wanting to be more lik...

It has been too long since my first post. Let's just say I let some things distract me. I am currently fasting from social media and boy is it helping me get my focus back! Since my last post quite a bit has happened in my life. Let's just say that this summer turned out to be one of the best summers I have ever had. It was full of new adventures. I got to spend quality time with some special friends. I got to travel to Virginia/DC to witness an amazing wedding. While there, I was able to visit the old town of Alexandria with one of my best friends. When I came back..well...let's just say that reality hit pretty quick! I am learning a lot about my character lately. It's funny, once I finally grow in one area of my life, I'm immediately challenged with another. That's how God works :) That's why I love Him. I know he's always working in my life. Let's just say...my life is never boring. Just when I think "I got this". God says..."No yo...

"As for my God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God besides the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. ~Psalms 18:30-32 It is this scripture that reflects my life, from the very beginning. We know from the scriptures that God created the universe and both man and woman in the beginning. Many of us know the story and how it went in Genesis 1 and 2, but who really knows the story of our lives from the very beginning? It has been on my heart for quite some time now to share the story of my life with many others in hopes that it can help other women not feel alone and in the hopes that it can inspire faith that although we can go through difficult times in our lives, there is always hope because our refuge and our rock is always there and never leaves our side-Our God, Our Father, Our Creator. I was born in Newark, NJ to some amazing pare...